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Profile HOME Ruth Arriola, 092792. Call me Ruth. Im 18 years old. Licensed. Im Undescribable. Even i cant Describe myself. but hey, i dont bite. follow me. and ill follow you yah? My Life's happy and sometimes its just shit that happens. I mean wwho doesnt get emo at times? haha. Its a blog kinda like my Timeline while im not tired of the massive transformation of the technology Archives March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 December 2010 January 2012 Exits Allure Bloom Crane Denotation Enigmatism Flair Grace Hope Initiation Credits ©Glamouresque.	Monday, January 2, 2012 A few things before 2011 ends; I am sitting down here in my bed, reflecting upon this year. This year was full of ups and downs and i cannot thank the Lord enough for what he put me through. Its that time of the year again where everyone says "its new year, its new Me". For me, i wouldn't say its NEW me because im gonna be lying if i say that. I would say "its new year, the better me." First of all, i would like to thank the very few people that was there for me when i needed someone. it may not be this person, but there's always another friend that would make you feel better. Hey Faye, it was a rollercoaster ride with you, but it was the best i ever had.you made me so much stronger. You're fucking wonderful. Thank YOU. Friends? only a few people i call friends. Just about this year, i found the true meaning of friendship. real friends, never leave your side, no matter the distance or the circumstances. real friends listen to what your gonna say no matter how long ur problem is. real friends... only few of em stuck with me through the end of this year. I may have had offended people due to the fact that i may be ditching them or just not replying to their texts or just leaving so early whenever theres a kickit. I am so sorrrrrryyy. i admit that i choose that decision and its because i did not know what to do because i was so focused with one thing. but people do learn from their mistakes. sadly, i just realized everything when during this time of the year. there so much to look back in this year of 2011. and it just makes me smile. PROM 2011; it was hell going thru this, debating last minute if i should go or not, buying our tickets so last minute. Ditching school to get my check from work, running to the bank to cash my check, and finally going back to school to purchase the tickets bcause it was the last day. so much sweat. bussing to serramonte early in the morning to get the cake done for my prom date. ahhh. the rejections. the fights. the tears before prom was well worth it because she came with me. the money spent on it was so worth it. finally being with th gspot was pricelessssssss. GRADUATION; a relief. graduated with the award of being athlete of the year. damn 4 years of hardwork; fighting to get up every morning to deciding to go to 1st period to just deciding to just sleep in. it was a struggle you know. but i could say, i put in hard work every year i had at Jeff. i finally graduated. MY birthday; it was a rough day for me because of some plans that did not pull through and consisted of some people that couldn't understand. i thought i was gonna have a bad day but it came out right. with my family at the end of the night was there with me and surprised me of what i ve been asking for; my dslr. it was priceless man.let me tell you. but before the night ended, i got pulled over. hahah. aint that some shit. speaking of my dslr; im staring my 365 project starting on the 1st . im so excitedddddd. hopefully i don't slack. My family; it was just by the end of the year that i got to spend so much time at home and with them. i fucking regret not spending time wih them before. man i realizedthat my parents are getting old too that time is going by so fast. a few more years, my brother and them are gonna have a family. we aint getting older. theyre sooo priceless man. especially when i got them gifts. they're expressions are fucking PRICELESS. My job; heyyy my job isnt really that bad anymore. as i get to know my coworkers, i realized that life for them is not easy, some of them went through hella shit just to ge that green pasture. im still lucky i did not have to go through this. i learned how simple life can be. so many irrelevant things that i have and i don't even need it.i also learned how to not judge a person by the way they look or by their race. so many eventrs and haphazards that shot me on my weak spot but i never gave up. im still standing with a smile on my face To 2012; less stress with people more time with family more work hours save money less spending schoool school schoool church friends project 365 Thank You GOD,Always Sunday, December 19, 2010 This Christmas? The semester ended up so bad with the subject I didn't really like. I have one more semester to go til I cross that stage, one of the days i been waiting, and its gonna be a bittersweet feeling. My life may not be the way i WANTED, but im just thankful for the opportunity living everyday.. Im thankful sooo much that my my christmas and new year arent gonna be the same aas last year. and im way toooo happy to even explain how i feel right now. 092710 way for a good start babe. i love you very much and i want you to know that im falling more in love with you every day. even just writing this note is giving me butterflies. haha. :) Saturday, October 30, 2010 the last and final year? Now Playing: Celebration - Tank ft Drake Since I have nothing to do, and I havent been bloggin or updating this. Anyways, my life lately was so messy, just like my damn binder. It's all over the place and I cant seem to keep and organize it. Maybe, after the season, I will be able to keep my shit straight. With all honesty, I think there are some people that I already let down and there are these people who still believes in me. With the way I'm dealing with things right now doesnt look correct. forgive me, but i'm still workin my way there. Im not even proud of what I have right because I know I could do better especially school, and I still dont know whats gonna happen with my future. With all these pressure around me, its hard to get back on track. It's my senior year, I should have took it easy, but no, I took challenges that I know I could handle and maybe Im wrong cause I cant seem to handle it right. I dont even know if I'm gonna join badminton. Meanwhile, theres one more week til volleyball season is over. Im glad i had the opportunity that she gave me the chance to be a captain, and for me it wasnt easy, cause im not the type that would get mad. But its all good, with each and every year, I had my improvements and achievements. Although, there are loses that I cant understand, i'd still look up high and acccept it. But there are times, that I cant pick myself up cus im so down. It's hard to keep it positive when youre facing the damn truth that ur worlds falling apart. But its okayyy, i know one of these days, ill pick myself up. and i hope its never too late for everything when that time comes... thats about it for today i guess. Happy Halloween ! xoxo, RUTH ARRIOLA Sunday, September 5, 2010 And in the end, its still lonely.. Aint Thinking Bout You - Chris Brown and Tyga Being single, doesn’t mean you are completely happy, just because you are livin the single life. I wish I could be happy all the way. I don’t even know why im feelin this right now. It aint easy to deal with these ppl especially when u got that feelings for them. It aint easy either to put up with them with whatever they be givin to you. Going with the flow? Aint easy as it sounds.. I don’t even trust anybody anymore, I know I sound so judgmental, but it is from my view point. How could you trust one person, when they can always do shit behind your back. How could you trust a person, when you know they still talkin to other bitches. As much as I want to stop em, I can’t, because it aint my life. If its not the other thing, best believe its gonna be worse than that. I don’t know how people could tolerate the world today, with alla these phoney attitude that comes with their selves. I don’t even wanna hear anything about it anymore or not even try to fucken deal with it. Straight up immature dude. Im not sayin im all grown up, but cmon now, you know whats up and whats not. I don’t know, at first I liked alla this, but then sometimes, I wish it didn’t happen to me. Its just hard to deal with alla these ppl tryna get in to my life, and just leave and comeback whenever they want to. This one of the many reasons, why I wouldn’t settle down with anyone. UGHHHHHHHHHH. Its just hard to be left over and over again. xoxo, Ruth Tuesday, August 17, 2010 One of those ordinary summer, but could have been better. As far as i can remember, 09's summer ended with my family problem too. Im not even surprised anymore.i know the silence between my 2nd brother and my dad, has sonething. I dont know, like rite now? I hella miss my brother paul. Hes not even the same anymore, i miss his jokes, laughter, all of it. Since that day, when my dad txted us talkin bout the bills and what not, and he took it up to his butt. Man, its not even the same anymore. I miss my kuya dude. It makes me cry...well maybe hes immature still, but these things dont gotta happen between the family. There are these awkward silences in the car when we cuda been rollin andnlaughin but no. Things are different:( To the other side, i ended my summer with a blast with the mains.. Thats bout it. And to tell you honestly, i haven done anything bou my summer works. Idk. Ugh. Im just ready for school cuz of volleyball season. Thats it.. I can hear my brother snoring.. I miss him. And im currently tearing right now... Ok bye... [Posted with iBlogger from my iPhone] Wednesday, August 4, 2010 an update. i just felt like updating my blog because, i been sucha procrastinator all this time. and when it comes to volleyball, i never lagged. haha. its not good. So, there's exactly 14 days before school starts, and i havent done any of my summer works. I dont know, i dont have any excitement nor any motivation to do any of this at all. sad to say... i know. but anyways, this summer wasnt different from last year, its alright. nothing really happened. oh well atleast i got to meet my goals tho; i been drunk, i been to function, i got to kickit with my lovelys, i just needa geett high. hahah. okay thats enough.. ohh boys.. i jsut dont know how to deal with yall. damn but this fooo thoo, got me fucked uppp.like freals. i hella like him. fuuuuuccccccccccccccccccccccckkkkk mannn. anyways, i was out for like a week cuz of my ankle. oh man. :[ i shuda neva wisheeed that. because it does suck big timeee. "God wont give me anything i cant handle.." i just seeen that quote. okay.i believe in HIM. i love my life. sometimes it just hurts..bhut i should be fine and happy. i love my family eventhough, were goin through this right now because of kuya paul. idont know, its just awkward sometimes... man dude, this makes me wanna cry.. its okay everythings gna be fine.. there are better days.. i love life, RUTH Friday, July 9, 2010 i feel lonely I feel lonely sometimes. its okaaaaaaaaaaay, you gotta sacrifice something to gain something good right?.ITS ALL GOOD. I COULD TAKE IT. BUT I MISSSSSSSSSSS BUBBA=[
But baby, where they knock you down and out Is where you oughta stay