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HOME Ruth Arriola, 092792. Call me Ruth. Im 18 years old. Licensed. Im Undescribable. Even i cant Describe myself. but hey, i dont bite. follow me. and ill follow you yah? My Life's happy and sometimes its just shit that happens. I mean wwho doesnt get emo at times? haha. Its a blog kinda like my Timeline while im not tired of the massive transformation of the technology Archives
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Sunday, November 29, 2009
its sort of funny its sort of funny but not in a ha-ha way. My auntie and my mom was talking about my brother’s girlfriend, and how my auntie didnt like her because of some stuffs. and how she looks like. My auntie kept on saying how the girl looks and that she saw her already because she hangs out with our 2nd cousins and drinks. In short, she didnt like the girl because of the stuffs that the girl has done from the past, how she didnt finish her high school. She kept comparing my brothers ex girlfriend kuz of how she graduated from nursing and those stuff. My auntie is too scared for my brothers girlfriend kuz the his present gf didn’t graduate high school. Scared of what might kind of living my brother will have. meanwhile, i found it funny because she doesnt understand what love is and what not, i mean, im not mad or against her towards on this topic. she’s right. but then she doesnt understand what my brother is feeling for the girl. Love doesn’t choose what situation or what’s gonna happen in the future. For as long as love someone, you dont care what people may say or what happens in the future, because u can go through whatever with the one you love. Friday, November 27, 2009
Black Friday Black Friday, November 27,2009. woke up at 630 am to drop off my mom at work. and went to babe’s house early morning. i looked gross. sorry babe. den cuddled with babe for a few mins and theeeeen babeee wanted to goo shopping already. haha. waited for babe to get ready then went to luckys to drop her off. den went home to go get ready. went to pick up chela den off to serramonte. den shop, well babe did. i didnt. after datt. uhh. went to go eat. den dropped chela off kuz she has to go. den went to hospital to visit babes mom. den yeah did errandsss. den babes mom checked outta the hosppp and drove her home. yeah. den stayed home for awhile. denn yeahhhhh.u knws. haha. den went to tanfoooran kuz babe wanna buy jeans. haha.but yeah. it was pretty long day with babe. den after that. night with the family. oh gawsshh. too much details eh? k ill stop there. it was indeed a long day. im very frazzled, but its all worth it. this happen once in a lifetime. Yup, its part of thanksgiving. it was exhausting especially shopping, although forever 21 upsets me. haha. its all good and gravy. i have never been tired like this for hella long. but i get to shop but not what i expected. but im THANKFUL. “and girl you know it’s gon’ be lovely. Thursday, November 26, 2009
with joy and thanksgiving. November 26,2009 its thanksigivng day and its my kuya’s birthday. Yesterday remains yesterday while u wake up and theres new beginning. Me and babe got back together. hope this time theres no BS that will go through us. and im thankful that something like you came into my life. GRRRR. its so cheesy but i have to say it babe. meanwhile, there is so much to be thankful for,for my everyday life, for the people around me, there so much blessing that God has given to me, despite the fact there are times that i tend to forget Him. and im very sorry for that. Lord, i know the word thankYou is not enough for the blessings that you have given to me. but ill say it anyways, THANKYOU for EVERYTHING LORD. iloveyou. Wednesday, November 25, 2009
that was pretty fast that was pretty faast? i should say. i remember back then when we used to be on each other and say words that would give us butterflies, those were the days that made me certainly happy that i wanted to be with that person. but i should have known better and not expect that this is gonna be forever. nothing last forever? i guess its true. i remember, when i fought for this love and relationship. showed you how much i want you. i wanted to make you happy, but i guess i wasn’t good enough to make you happy and to make you feel like that. what happened to forever and 7 days? what happened to "starting right now, ima try to not be an ass anymore babe" . what happened to "110709 settled. could not ask for more." what happened to "babe youre mine k?" yea babe im yours. what happened with those aways? when u used to show ppl how much u love me. how much u want me. "its just a fucking away." i know right. idk why am i even trippin offa that. yeah now. no ones gonna bother u anymore. no ones gonaa tell you what to do or what not. no ones gonna force u anymore. happy? hope so. it was nov.21 2009 when everything started to change. because of that one stupid mistake i did. it changed everything. if i knew this is whats gonna happen. i shuda never said. yes i wasnt thinking because my anger was taking over. shit happens.sorry for ruining everything everything. if this really it? then go ahead. i would not stop you anymore because this is too much. i cant take it. everything changed. dont wish that ill be happy kuz u know that i wouldnt. im giving up and you are always welcome to come back. thanks for everything. i loved you with all my heart and soul. but i guess i wasn't enough. Sunday, November 22, 2009
but but the smile on your face makes up for the pain in my heart. CFBM is all i need. Saturday, November 21, 2009
how about the future? uhh, me and babe was talkin bout stuffs in philippines, like how the Christmas was celbrated there, and here in America? its hekka dead. why is that? whats the difference? I remember back in the Philippines, me and my cousin would sing christmas carols and would get money out of it. It is so fun, that we wouldnt care about the money, its ours, we share and we half it. I remember how my aunties and uncles would give us money thats new and id smell it because its so addicting. I remember how we would gather on the eve of Christmas and would make a countdown til the clock strikes 12 and would greet each other Merry Christmas,how we would hug each other and kiss other in the cheeks. I remember going with them during simbang gabi just to get putubumbong. Oh gosh. How i Miss my Philippines. It is back then when my mom wouldnt care about me playing volleyball and going home late. How my dad wasnt there and it was all good. i was happier in the philippines. I didnt have these problems back then. But now? it sucked.like how the Christmas and New Year are celebrated here. sucks man. those were the moments i would never forget in my life. i would gladly look back to it in the future. im glad it happened, it left me lessons and made me see reality. talking bout the passst. HI future, haha. i just looked at my friends facebook, and i saw her album titled "dormmates". if i was in the philippines,i would be a college student and would stay in one of those dorms and would live without my parents, id be happy. omg, why did we even move out here? i dont like it here.i mean i like it but i would choose to go back in p.i to live my own life. but then there are differences, there are somethings that philippines doesnt have and america has it. that is why we moved out here, but it made it seems like life here is harder. I imagine myself being an independent woman in a CSU and have my own car. ohhhhhh. or some college in L.A omgggg. GOOD life. i wouldnt ask for more. anyways, nuff of dreaming.live your life. RUTH. Thursday, November 19, 2009
i notice. it started out so badddd. and hoping to end it better. ugh. my dramas in the morning. i hate it. talked to bestie in the morning and tell me why i cried. but anyways, i dont wanna talk about it. ttwas an okay day. uhh. same routine for thursdayyyss, block days, i hate block dayss. they take forever. especially wednesdayyy. omg. too much chemistryyy is like bombing my brain and at the same time sleeping in my bedd but u cant kuz u know theres bomb thats coming. ha. stupid simile. haha. so, my 6th period, algebraII. we hadda sub. tell me why i start noticing things around me; i find it pretty weird because of the people that i have in my class. there was different kinds of people that i dont usually notice til earlier. its pretty funny how i saw them in a way that nobody could see it, i was kinda laughing inside because of how i see them, there's people that so weird but so smart, theres people that wouldnt care about whats happening around them, theres ppl who cud draw the whole period, theres ppl who cud talk for the whole period, theres ppl that they think theyre cute but their not. haha. its so weird, i wonder how these people see me too? haha. this is what i do when i dont have my ipod on me. there are thingss that i wanted to do but i cant because i am limited to do things, and i know i shouldnt be doing that, but blaaah, im unexplainable, i dont even get myself. so im currently reading the book "Adventures if Huckleberry Fin " by Mark Twain and im on chapter two and im actually liking the boook, miracle? no, because the book has its illustrations inside. adur. i want those kinds of books, those books that would catch my attention. well yeah, and it depends on the story too. ima end this now. life is unexplainable, RUTH. the world. keeps getting in the way. sometimes there are times when i just want to ask God, why cant i be happy the way i wanted to? but i can't because i dont have the right, i know my life is a privilege given to me by God and i know i shoudnt be asking those or not even think of it, instead of thanking Him. Theres not a day, that im thinking about everything; my parents, my grades, and other stuuff. I cant even look on the positive side anymore, when im home, i cant even smile because of my dad, like real talk, it hurts me, im just tryna play and laugh it off, its been awhile since i hadda nice talk with my dad, because my anger was always inside.and it hurrts me when they would see the things i do was wrong. anyways, i dont wanna be emo, but its just reality. dad, uve been always in my mind. Sunday, November 15, 2009
we fight and we make up. its been 3 days in a row that were always fighting kuz of my stupid ass. hey babe, sorry if im a bitch most of the time, ill try not to be one anymore. :( dont leave me k? i love you! CFBM. all that i need. Monday, November 9, 2009
tell me Love is being stupid together, having silly fights, holding hands just because you can, the inability to stop smiling when you`re together, being able to stuff your face in front of them, knowing they love sunkist but hate orange fanta. Drooling over them when they’re in sweats & a white tee, smiling simply because you heard they’re name and simply stated, love is a feeling that, no matter when or where it happens, can’t be denied. a sudden change as volleyball season ended, things were slowly changing, in a good way and bad way, i guess?im stressed about my grades and i dont know why the heck am i doing, i wouldnt blame it on volleyball and/or to anyone, because yes it's still mydecision to slack off, or by any means to procrastinate. so i blame it on myself. progress reports bout to come out, i should watch out for my grades coming in the mail. i shud go home early. and watch the mail so my dad couldnt see my grades. haha. bad. i know it is. grrrr. i hate school for some reason, i used to love AP, but now im hating it, i dont know why, theres no excitement in school for me, i mean for my academics. but whatever, but real talk tho, i needa giit my shits straight. HELLA things changed , and i know i need to blog this.or somehow in the future ill remember this one time that one person came into my life and never made me happy this way. me and my ex arent talking anymore, moved to the philippines, and i think thats a good decision for him, except for the fact that his family wud blame me for that decision he made. i know that i dont have the face to put it in his family especially to his sister. but who cares, its nnot my fault. or u cud blame it to me, i dont care either. move on. things do change. and yes feelings do. we both didnt take care of it. ANYYYWAYYSS, theres this one person thats been making me happy for the past few days, and im happpy bout it. People might say i move on too fast, or whatever, thats life, i wont spend my days crying over what happend. i dont want to waste my time where it will not provide me anythigng;useless. thats how life goes and i beleive that past doesnt matter anymore, learn from it. anyhowwwss, i thank this person for making me feel this way, we both believe in forever, and i said that we'll make it happen. we both came from the same situtation from the past and i know we cud do better this time. I believe and will believe in this. mark that. 110709 the start. CFBM on mines:) i coudnt not ask for more. Tuesday, November 3, 2009
volleyball season is over ended it with no wins, but all worth of time and will. only the strong will survive. and yes, i did everything, i did everything that i can do for the team, i still have my senior year to prove something, to prove that we deserve a win. i should say that ending this season made me sad at the same time im happy that it happened because i gotta admit i got better and im actually stepping myself up. well unlike before, my freshman year, i waas so scared to be in the court. haha. i learned alotta leassons and things, i learned how to accept loses in lives,learned to keep my head up and learned to fight. i would still call my team a winner. like what ive said earlier i still have my senior to prove something, and ill make it happen. yeeee. |
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