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HOME Ruth Arriola, 092792. Call me Ruth. Im 18 years old. Licensed. Im Undescribable. Even i cant Describe myself. but hey, i dont bite. follow me. and ill follow you yah? My Life's happy and sometimes its just shit that happens. I mean wwho doesnt get emo at times? haha. Its a blog kinda like my Timeline while im not tired of the massive transformation of the technology Archives
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Friday, July 9, 2010
i feel lonely I feel lonely sometimes. its okaaaaaaaaaaay, you gotta sacrifice something to gain something good right?.ITS ALL GOOD. I COULD TAKE IT. BUT I MISSSSSSSSSSS BUBBA=[ Thursday, July 8, 2010
yes, i do feel like this I hate feeling like I’m some sort of back up plan, or a second thought. Honestly, some people only appreciate you more when you’re about to leave, walk out, when you’re sincerely fed up with everything. But once they get you back, they get the satisfaction for a bit, and then start caring less, start appreciating you less because they think you’ll always stay. Well, that isn’t always true. Appreciate someone while they are still there, not when they’re gone. Tuesday, July 6, 2010
oh yea? its the truth. So that conversation with frenzy bout relationships, got me thinkin alot. With that past 2 year long relationship i had, i dont think i will be ever inlove that way. I mean its stuck in my mind and Ialready forshadowed whats gna happen because of it. And i know i dont wanna be in a relationship because i dont wanna hurt somebody else like what i did with that 2year relationship. Its hard because i know i was getting tired of it and the feelings aint there anymore. Its hard when you guys dothe same routine over and over again. Its hard thinking of ways how to be inlove over and over again. Its hard thnking whered all the spark go and yes it hurts for my side. And i feel the pain even more, because i know he is in pain. Then once i fell in love so much that i never got to think of myself. I fell so hard that it was so hard for me to get up... It was a whole trip. I realized i could only do so much. I could only be hurt that much. And with Christian, I did all of the things I learned. I was so fucking glad I wasnt hurt that much. And with chris, I dont think I was in love. I think its all that catchy feelings. But he was the man i finally saw myself with in the future. But then there are things that just didnt feel right. I think i was just playing games with him. Sad but thats what I realized. But it's hard, after all. It's hard when you talk to someone, and all that "makin feel so damn good" feelings is soo attached to you. and then, when its not around, you look for it. No matter what, you get sad after all. I dont know if its me, well, yeah maybe it's myself. i fall too much for sweettalker, when you know they still mess around with them other bitches. It's hard not to expect from someone, especially when they say that they like you. It's never that easy yaknow? But I'll be sure starting from now on, to take time to look at the consequences at the end. BECAUSE I FUCKING KNOW, you do too, THAT WHATEVER HAPPENS, FEELINGS ARE GONNA CHANGE and SHITS GONNA HAPPEN. so be sure to leave ur one foot on the ground, so u could fucking get back up and make you momma proud. Duces, RUTH |
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But baby, where they knock you down and out
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