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Ruth Arriola, 092792. Call me Ruth. Im 18 years old. Licensed. Im Undescribable. Even i cant Describe myself. but hey, i dont bite. follow me. and ill follow you yah? My Life's happy and sometimes its just shit that happens. I mean wwho doesnt get emo at times? haha. Its a blog kinda like my Timeline while im not tired of the massive transformation of the technology

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Monday, February 1, 2010
where i went wrong.

This is why i hate being stuck at home, i tend to think too much and it goes deeper, way deeper than it is. I have been regretting for the past days; I should have done that, this and all of those craps. But really though, it was, nonetheless, all my fault. I focused too much in one certain thing, that i had to let other things slip away through my hands. That's one thing that is wrong with me; i tend tofocus on one thing, when i want it so much. This is part of my immaturity,yes i admit it, therefore I should change it.

The state of changing; it is not always easy to accept changes that is going through/around you. yet, i know for a fact that there's always going to be a change, its mandatory for you to deal with it, whether these changes are going to be good or bad for you, but trust me, these changes are going to be one of the reasons why u kept on moving forward and made you grow. Be mature enough to face these changes.

Sometimes, i have to listen to what my friends are saying, because its not all the time i know what is right for me, i should have listened, way back from the start. I never saw it coming. See this thing; i was so infatuated that it led me to loving it.

"Hearts are broken, tears come running down every night."

It was a foolish thought of me, to think that way; very selfish and very immature. I could not accept what was happening back then. I was stuck around with one thing. Yes people are selfish, and sometimes you have to think for yourself and not think about them, but i went on the other way, I never thought that i could give someone my best like that.Like never. I did it because of what happened in the past. I tried to be a better person. I guess, it was a wrong move. It came to the point that i have to question God; what did i do to deserve all of this? I know I shouldn't be asking Him in the first place, because it was really my choice to be that way. I stayed because i thought it would be better, but there are some things that come and go, or even stay, to let you know that they are just there to leave you marks that will remain forever. There are some things that it is better for you to let it go. and that is one phase in life that i have to deal with. letting it go.

I have become a stronger person since that day, and im so much happy to know the fact that i made it through.

Avoiding the problems or should i say running from them, is not gonna do any better, yet u find yourself dealing with it over and over again. The fact that u cant avoid it,might as well deal with it; the pain, the tears, the smiles, the heartaches,the dramas, everything that comes with it. whole pack.

I was saying to myself, that i know better than this, but really, NO. if you see it that way, there's more that comes with it. Because all i saw was the outer look of the whole scenario; that everything is all good. nah, dude. its not like that. You have to look wayy beyond it.

There are some people who is just numb, or more like selfish. But thats how they are, accept them right, but the solution is that, you are the one who has to adjust with the whole problem, if they wouldnt change, you are the one who is forced to adjust and make some changes, always remember that.

Like i said to myself; Kismet is dancing with you, why not dance with it too?

I find it very amusing(opposite) to see that this year had so much of me already, and im still wondering what's in store for me for the next months.


Thanks January, Hello February.

and My name is RUTH.
But baby, where they knock you down and out
Is where you oughta stay